Dear Readers, I know I haven’t blogged for a couple of years. I may start again, as I miss you all very much. This post is here because I don’t know how else to send a tribute to my cousin for her 80th birthday. This is the only platform I know that I could send pictures and words, but I couldn’t send it to just her. That’s why you are seeing this here. Sorry this is about someone you don’t even know. I hope to see you again soon! Big Love, Mary
Dearest Jessica, how can I begin to tell you what you have meant to me over the last 55 years?
You have been my lifeline.
When I first noticed you, there was a tear running down your cheek. It was at Mama’s funeral. I knew in that moment you would be important in my life, somehow.
I remember after she died, and I was living with Daddy, you would pick up David from Aunt Em’s, bring Hillary and Jack, and you would fix dinner for us and then we would all play hide and seek in the big house. At that time in my life, I lived for those times, as I was so sad and lost without my loving mom. Hillary and Jack, I think were 4 and 6. You were in your third decade(24), and I, early in my second(12).
I started coming to your house to babysit for you, and would spend the night sometimes. You would take David to play organs in churches you would sneak into.
When things got stormy living with Daddy, you took me in. You were my home. You saved me. Thank you. Thank you so much. Words are so inadequate to express this appreciation.
I remember how fun it was living with you, Hillary and Jack. Your house was the neighborhood house. I remember loading the neighborhood kids into the Pontiac station wagon and going to Lake Roland. We laughed and played a lot.
I had begun my spiritual path, and you were right there with me. You, EH, David and I would talk about things not many people knew about at that time. We would sneak off to the Theosophical Society and the Aquarian Age Bookstore, and feel the Oneness of it All.
After a while, it was too much for you having me there. I was sick a lot, and you were going through a divorce. It was sad to leave, but you were still my home. You felt bad about it, I know, but you have no idea how much you had done for me already. It was the right and only thing to do. So I left for boarding school
Every weekend you came to get me, and on open weekends, I came home. I loved that, coming home and eating ice cream with chocolate sauce and laughing and talking about our spiritual way of life in the kitchen.
You believed in me.
When I felt like hiding, you always brought me out.
You opened me.
You and Theo came to get me every weekend to let me run and run in the woods. How I treasured those times.
Theo found a new and much freer boarding school for me, and my life changed for the better. Still you came to visit. Still you continued to believe in me, which made me feel whole.
The day after I graduated from high school, EH brought me to New Mexico.
Off on a new adventure, still of course keeping in close touch with you. You would come to Quimby Center for the summer workshops. I went to college there, in Alamogordo, or as Daddy used to say, “Aliolito.”
One summer, I came home to work for a veterinarian I loved, and Ellen was living there too. More ice cream, chocolate sauce and laughter.
And going to Ocean City and sailing!
Then back to New Mexico to be with all my friends in Cloudcroft. It was hard to stay in contact, as I didn’t have a phone.
After a while, I got very very sick
And was dying
Again, you wouldn’t stand for it. You sent for me, and another transformation began.
And oh, that transformation! You are an instigator of deep change and healing.
It was my Saturn Return.
You set me up with every healer in Albuquerque.
You, Elena and the Deanski helped me with all the supplements, fasting, appointments and resting. And holding the Light for me. Calling on Angelic help.
Slowly, I began to heal. You were in your early 5th decade, and about to set off on your own adventure to New Zealand!
Across the sea…..
Over the Rainbow Bridge
Off on a whole great big huge magical adventure!
And along came beautiful Mishie!
gentle, fierce and true.
I feel such gratitude that you found each other, and love each other so very much. You are both so strong.
How grateful I am to have Mishie in the family.
At that time, when you came to the States, you both spend such beautiful time with me and my Kris. Remember the evening we spent drumming and it turned into total silliness? I still chuckle thinking of it. Such deep, out of control laughter! I love that so much.
Remember Abina? She was just a puppy when I was living with you.
Kris says she loves you and Happy Birthday!
And I loved going to New Zealand for your wedding and meeting your friends, and getting a glimpse into the wonderful life you had created.
I know, blurry, but I had to take a picture of a picture of a picture. Haha. It was a beautiful ceremony!
Always the networker, creating a loving community wherever you go.
We are all woven together as one life force
Residing in Sacred Consciousness
Knowing that light and darkness always dance together, around us and within us.
Each summer you worked so hard and sacrificed so much to come to the States to visit our family as well as creating your beautiful Desert Quests. Visiting me in Albuquerque was wonderful for me, and then to share my new world with you has been awesome.
Flying across the ocean, each year
Sharing your treasured time with us
Bill and Mattie say Happy Birthday, Jessica!
Thank you for leaving a trail of beautiful energy on our land!
So much we have been through together over the years. Facing all the deaths – parents, siblings, friends…
And Joys we have shared.
Thank you for knowing me so deeply, and loving me so much.
You have met so many of my Spirit Guides.
And I have met many of yours,
as we use our deep Soul force to challenge the narratives about the illusions in which we live, residing in our True Nature – within the Presence of the Divine. Love.
Receiving infusions of Mystical Light and higher frequencies.
You have been there for me from early blooming to becoming an elderess. All the important moments – school plays, all graduations, birthdays, wedding. You are amazing. The devotion we feel for each other is so huge in our hearts. Always there.
Being there for me for another important time – walking into my 7th decade, in the middle of my 2nd Saturn Return. You were early in your 8th decade. That was the year Bill fell, Rosie died, Bill had a brain bleed, Mattie came to us, Sarah passed, Family reunion. 2013. Big year.
Just a few four leggeds who popped in to say hello and Happy Birthday to you.
They want to acknowledge the journey we are all on. Becoming more conscious. Living fully in each Now moment.
Discovering inner space deeper and deeper always. Remembering who we are.
You have made the big choice to Love and to empower others, even when it involves personal sacrifice.
To be kind, and to know the power of every choice, every word, every action.
Yet, you have boundaries, and take care of yourself.
I have loved our conversations over the years(decades) sharing and experiencing these things.
And now, you are walking into a new phase of your life. Your 9th decade!
The Labyrinth continues, growing stronger in you, each decade.
And sharing that so beautifully with others.
Going deeper into knowing yourself, dancing with Life, as you do.
Growing fully into the mystical Grace of the Divine Feminine, as She Rises.
Deeper and deeper into the limitless Soul.
Always full of surprises, our Souls
You – always loyal to your Soul and your Soul Group.
We all breathe together. What is in one is in the whole.
We are all on this human journey together.
You have always been 100% authentically you.
You have always followed your heart.
You have always been dedicated to inner growth and spirituality.
You are an inspiration and teacher to all who have the good fortune to know you.
You have always lived life fully, with total Heart
So FUN being together!
I love you, Jessica. I love you with all my heart.
F I N G E R S!
Thank you for helping me vision through all these years and holding those visions and prayers for me. Thank you for the laughter, the love, and helping me know happiness within. Thank you for saving my life so many times. Thank you for being you and sharing this life with me.
Mirroring each other. I love that. We have learned heaps and tons from each other.
I am so loving our FaceTime talks! They help close the gap of physical distance. Thank you for taking the time for these special visits.
May you live in Ease, Joy, Grace, Peace and Love always, in all ways.
Happy 80th Birthday, Dearest Jessica!
Blessings, Love and Light Always,
Merest of B